January, 2024: “Please God, let us get the news that we need to hear right now in order to help her. Whether or not it is what we were expecting to find out.” I find myself saying this prayer in the waiting room of the doctor’s office. We had been there for close to two …
This has been a difficult year for us; lots of new changes and busy schedules. I’ve shared on social media that we’ve been staying busy with appointments but haven’t really shared more than that. To be honest, I’ve been processing and struggling with feelings of failure, guilt, and that I wasn’t doing enough for my …
I recently wrote an article for Catholicmom.com (find it here) about having hope while traveling with kids, and just recorded a podcast for them going more into the topic. Those of you following along with me know that I’m more introverted, and I’m better able to collect my thoughts as I write so I can …
Ready or not, summer is approaching! My kids have their last day of school on June 1st. While I am looking forward to forgo the morning hustle during the week days, I’m nervous about what to do to fill up the time. My kids are all very close in age and, like most kids, tend …
Desiring Motherhood The weekend my husband went to his National Guard drill for the first time was lonely. We had just moved into our new apartment together after living at his grandmother’s house for a month as we hunted for jobs and a place to live. We were in a new city and only had …
It’s been a year since I found I was most likely miscarrying Jesse. September 13, 2021 I went into my doctor’s appointment and heard the words that no parent wants to hear. Baby was measuring small, and there was no detectable heartbeat. I had to wait another week to see if there was any change, …
I stared at the empty space on our wall where his picture would be, wondering what he would look like, yet also in disbelief that soon we would have another newborn. Those that have been following along with me here know that I suffered a miscarriage right before getting pregnant with Elijah. And while I …
Written on May 15, 2022 Celebrating past and present achievements There have been so many graduations recently in my family. So many things to celebrate! My sister-in-law graduated college and will be getting married next week. My older sister graduated with a counseling degree that she’s been working on for years while raising her kids. …
It has been awhile since I have written anything. Spring is always busy for us because we have 3 birthdays, doctor check-ups, Easter, and this year we had family visiting for Easter. All of these events are not the only reason I have been absent on here though. I have felt like I have not …
Jesse’s burial service was this past Friday. We were blessed with beautiful weather for it. I wanted to take some time to write and share pictures on it, but also share some information about the shrine where we buried Jesse. I feel like a lot of people who have miscarriages don’t realize that they have …
